Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Out of Order

My dear blog, I've left you all alone and I'm so sorry for it. You've stayed here waiting for me hoping that I'll come back and at least smile and say 'I miss you my lovely blog'. Well, you can smile now because I do miss you dearly. In human relationships, friends, love ones, to those whom I've not smiled, laughed, joked or angered with, I'm sorry I missed to do that to you. The sun never stop brightening your day, I did. The rain never stop pouring love, I did. The wind never stop blowing kisses, I did. I apologize deeply to whom ever I've once touched, I know I out ordered.

In remembrance of 'Rain', you're the only one that really-really remain deep in my heart that I can't seem to ever let go no matter how hard I tried. I'm like my blog which never give up hope that one day you will come right in front of me saying just 'Hi'.

I miss you mrsygG.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

life after you at 35..

Physically, mentally.. There is no life after you. I just wanna be with you, I've preyed you'll forgive me and never forget me. God in some way, surely would listen to me and if God were to ask me 'I will take your life away in the next 24 hours, in trade that 24 hours would be to spend it with mrs ygG' I would say 'Yes'. In my 35 years of making decisions, this one I know is the right one and I don't want to spend the next 35 years alone because I want to spend it with you. If I am destined to be without you for the next 35 years, then so be it, I will wait to the day you forgive me if it takes me another 35 years to wait.


Tuesday, March 9, 2010


It's unreachable, I don't know what else to do but wait with faith. Heart trembles as March 2010 walks into my life, the month of where the new beginning was to take place and here I am sitting in my room waiting with full hope and courage hoping it'll take place. The memorable 18th. March, the unforgettable precious heart, I've treasured it deep where no one has even come close to disrupt. Recognizing the situation and the outbreak of what it'll suppress me after this month passes by like any other month, I will still be here with full faith even the world crumbles upon me. This special month I hope it 'Rains' comforting me day and night till' death do us apart.

I miss my Rain..

Unforgettable heart..

It's been months since I've even updated anything here, had lots of request from friends and followers asking me to write.. Well, here I am. The truth is I've been busy with work and I'm not ashamed to admit I force myself to be busy, to keep myself from thinking about things that reluctantly deploys my everyday life towards becoming someone success and more meaningful. Life have been tough, life have moved on, but the memory of the one unforgettable heart remains deeply.

The truth is out there, the truth remains intact no matter what we need it to be. We are responsible for all our on doings and perception towards what this world has to offer. I've tried so hard, the one unforgettable heart remains not just deeply but irreplaceable. I've tried ways more then any of you can think of but none worked, if it did worked maybe by a day to help clear my emotions but none worked to remain as the one unforgettable heart that I've loved, cherish and missed.

The truth is I miss my unforgettable heart which pours 'Rain' and light the hell out of my dark life. The truth is I miss my Rain~

Monday, August 3, 2009


Yesterday went to Great Eastern Mall to meet up with my next client, a website selling cute little clothes for infants. Nice folks they were and chatted up for almost 3 hours. Met at Starbucks and they sell expensive coffees so we are entitled to stay for 3 to 4 hours haha. You guys should check it out at

Before that I was at Old Town White Coffee in Bangsar South with Rina from, I look for it close to an hour. It's called Bangsar South so off to Bangsar I was heading and in God's gracious invention so called 'Men' were smart enough to call part of Kg. Kerincci - Bangsar South. Damn it, why can't they call it Kerrinci North? It's situated in the north part of Kerincci and is Kerincci under Bangsar? ..errr or Pantai Dalam? A tourist, later on became a friend of mine once said, Malaysians are the most polite people she's ever met. She also said this 'to find your way around Kuala Lumpur, never use road signs'. Ermm so what does that mean? Go figure it out the next time you want to go to a place where you've never been to and you'll be amaze of how stupid Malaysians put up road signs.

A simple example. Start yourself from Dataran Merdeka, destination Kuala Lumpur International Airport(KLIA) and follow through Lake Garden, Jalan Parliment and once you head down hill there is a signboard that says KLIA to the left(which will lead you to Jalan Mahameru and to Jalan Bangsar), the correct route is to stay on your right heading towards Jalan Damansara(in one minute constantly driving at 70km/h you will see another signboard that says go straight to KLIA. This route will take you right into NKVE highway and straight to KLIA.
Question : What the hell?
Answer : Ridiculous Malaysian Signboard.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

We Are the Polite Ones

A new month, welcome to August.

Just as I was about to write, thinking of what should I rumble, along came an elderly lady in her early 50's but very presentable started to chat up with me. All she wanted to know was where can she get a set of 'Ink Printers' and I directed her verbally up to the first floor where there is a Mac Apple sole distributor. Originally from New York, we started chatting about almost everything up to her daughter being arrested at Zouk KL. As we musically dance with words for about 20 minutes or so, she got a phone call and had to rush off to somewhere.

She's been here in Malaysia for 36 years and she prefers it here by saying 'I just love the politeness of every Malaysian'. Wah, did you read what did I just type haha. As she gets up sipping her last drop of Starbucks coffee, she greets me by saying 'nice to meet you and what is your name?' I answered 'Ezra', she smiled and said that is a very Jewish name *lol. I smiled and she walks off while I continue writing.

Few days back I got a decent contract from a guy who just started establishing his company 'Travel and Tours' and plans ahead by having a website. This is where I expertly come in. Sitting here in Starbucks not only opens up my mind but it clears it from other thoughtful eagerness that do matter the most but I just have to put it aside for just a bitty whinny tiny time so that I could get some dough and make a living. Will update on this once it's fully operating by itself cruising around for the staged world to see. Tomorrow will be meeting Rina about her blog.

That's it from me today, it's Saturday, will just be hanging out by myself driving-in McDonald's on the way to KLIA and chump chump by the road side, it's kinda hobby of mine, love to see planes go up and down haha. Everytime I do this, which I occasionally do, it'll just remind me more of 'Rain' for whom I've never been able to erase. Chow peeps..

Friday, July 31, 2009


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The Greatest Story Ever Told

Questions religions as original god-given stories, arguing the Christian religion specifically is mainly derived from other religions, astronomical facts, astrological myths and traditions in turn derived from or sharing elements with other ones. In furtherance of the Jesus myth hypothesis, this part argues that the historical Jesus is a literary and astrological hybrid, nurtured politically in the interest of control.

The film Zeitgeist : The Movie offers explanations for some of these common attributes. To explain the origin of the alleged December 25 birth, the film points out that the Winter solstice has the shortest day, and therefore the shortest amount of sunlight of the year, and that about three days after it, sunlight time could be seen growing, thus marking the birth of a God of light or Sun God, another Christian-astrological similarity, according to the film is that the three stars in Orion's belt(called the Three Kings) align with Sirius on December 25, the brightest star in the sky, and point to the Sun's rise on the horizon. This is equated to the Nativity of Jesus, where, according to the film, three kings follow the star in the east to locate the birth of Jesus. Furthermore, around December 25, Sun rises in the vicinity of Virgo, the constellation known as Virgin, which refers to the origin of Jesus virgin birth. Comparison of sunset in the vicinity of Crux and Jesus death on the cross is based on similar principle. In addition, parallels as walking on water (reflection at dawn/dusk) and turning water into wine (ripening of grapes) are shown as metaphoric miracles, explained as the influence of the Sun.

Christianity is then said to be a Gnostic myth, historized by the Roman Empire for social control of Europe through doctrines established at the First Council of Nicea. The Dark Ages, the Inquisitions and the Crusades are given as events which maintained Europe's submission to The Vatican through Christianity.

The following is said in conclusion :

"Christianity, along with all other theistic belief systems empowers those who know the truth, but use the myth to manipulate and control societies. It reduces human responsibility to the effect that God controls everything and in turn awful crimes can be justified in the name of Divine Pursuit. The religious myth is the most powerful device ever created, and serves as the psychological soil upon which other myths can flourish."

The World Staged

My favorite part, integral footage of several 9/11 conspiracy theory films to portray the September 11 attacks as either orchestrated or allowed to happen by elements within the United States government in order to generate mass fear, initiate and justify the War on Terror, provide a pretext for the curtailment of civil liberties, and produce economic gain. These claims include that the U.S. government had advance knowledge about the attacks, the response of the military deliberately let the planes reach their targets, and the World Trade Center buildings 1, 2, and 7 underwent a controlled demolition. The film claims that six of the named hijackers are still alive, that Hani Hanjour could not have flown Flight 77 into the Pentagon, that no substantial plane wreckage was found at two of the three crash sites, that the Bush administration covered up the truth in the 9/11 Commission Report, and that the mainstream media have failed to ask important questions about the official account.

Men Behind The Curtain

This argues that three wars of the United States during the twentieth century were waged purely for economic gain by what the film refers to as "international bankers". The film alleges that certain events were engineered or were allowed to happen as excuses to enter into war include the sinking of the RMS Lusitania (a factor in the U.S. decision to enter World War I two years later), the Attack on Pearl Harbor (which was the opening attack of the Japanese on the U.S. in World War II), and the Gulf of Tonkin Incident (which led to the escalation of the Vietnam War).

According to the film, the U.S. was forced by the Federal Reserve Bank to become embroiled in these wars, not to win but to sustain conflict, as it forces the U.S. government to borrow money from the bank, allegedly increasing the profits of the international bankers. The film gives a history of the Federal Reserve, claiming it engineered the Great Depression to steal wealth from the American population and was responsible for the assassination of Louis McFadden, a congressman who attempted to impeach the Federal Reserve Board. The film then goes on to claim that the Federal Income Tax is illegal.

This section also claims the existence of a secret agreement to merge the United States, Canada and Mexico into a "North American Union" and to replace the Canadian dollar, United States dollar, and the Mexican peso by a new currency, called the "amero". The creation of this North American Union is then alleged to be a step towards the creation of a "One World Government", which would be formed by the merging of the North American Union, the European Union, the African Union and a hypothetical Asian Union. The film speculates that under such a government, every human could be implanted with an RFID chip that would be used to monitor individuals and suppress dissent. The film ends with several quotes from Carl Sagan, Bill Hicks and several others.

Sequel : Addendum

Zeitgeist Addendum cites citing the specific process of fractional-reserve banking as detailed in Modern Money Mechanics, released by the Federal Reserve Bank of Chicago. In detailing the process of money creation, the film suggests society is manipulated into economic slavery through debt-based monetary policies by requiring individuals to submit for employment in order to pay off their debt. Money was created out of thin air. Without dept, there would be no existence of money.

Part II is a documentary-style interview with The New York Times best-selling author and activist John Perkins based on his book, Confessions of an Economic Hit Man, in which he describes his role as a self-described economic hit man. In that capacity, he claims to have helped the CIA, as well as various corporate and political entities, to undermine or corrupt foreign regimes that put the interests of their populations before those of transnational corporations. Perkins denies the existence of a conspiracy, because he sees the U.S. as a corporatocracy, in which there is no need for a plot, as politicians like Dick Cheney (who first served as the head of a construction company Halliburton and afterwards became Vice President) are alleged of working under the same primary assumption as corporations: that maximisation of profits is first priority, regardless of any social or environmental cost.

Part III is a documentary-style interview with futurist Jacque Fresco. The film looks at Fresco's proposal of a "resource-based economy", which he claims would create abundance, is environmentally friendly and sustainable. He goes on to discuss technology which he sees as the primary driver of human advancement and he blames politics as being unable to solve any problems, because of what he claims is lack of "technical capabilities". Fresco claims that his approach is not perfect, but that "it's just much better than what we have. We can never achieve perfection".

Part IV of the film suggests that the primary reason for what it sees as society's social values ("warfare, corruption, oppressive laws, social stratification, irrelevant superstitions, environmental destruction, and a despotic, socially indifferent, profit oriented, ruling class") is a collective ignorance of "the emergent and symbiotic aspects of natural law." The film suggests several actions for "social change", which include: boycotting banks who are claimed to make up the Federal Reserve System, such as JPMorgan Chase and Citibank, turning off TV news, not joining a military, refusing energy from energy companies in favour of making homes self-sustainable with clean energy and rejecting the political structure. The film closes by asking everyone to "eliminate the divisionary, materialistic noise, we have been conditioned to think is true ... while discovering, amplifying and aligning with the signal coming from our true, empirical oneness."

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Rain I Missed

I've illusion, ponder with thoughts flickr through my brain cells imagining what it would be like to have it all just as dreamed. I'm so use to having afternoon dreams and how I miss that so much. Hours passes by ridiculously slow, days go by felt like I was compose cramp in a basement cell hoping that rain would fall from the sky reaching out to me. Entering a new month of loneliness I keep my hopes high, never have I ever dismiss the possibility that rain would pass through thick brick walls splashing me with sensitivity, and water me for the rest of my life.

We shall strive this with victorious glory, the rain I miss. Sitting in my room with grieve, with the possibility of not knowing what will I venture next, what will I have to face in the upcoming events of my now, future and the after life. To God that created me, I beg you for mercy to save my soul from this miserable sadness of not ever knowing what have become of my rain. I cry in hopeless but with hope I have live.

Monday, July 27, 2009


Facebook release my account today and I can start writing on comments and friends walls. What a relief haha. Updates on half way to completion, hopefully the owner Rina whom I met at Old Town Kopitiam in Damansara Utama(their Wi-Fi sucks hard and a million thumbs down) is happy with it, did 3 columns(previously 2), change her background outer wrapper which I custom by using only 'Paint'. Unbelievably her original template did not have any background HTML language

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and if any of you are wondering, that is to command HTML pages of what background image should appear, pictures can be browsed anywhere in the web, my advise would be where you can edit, crop, rotate all your album pictures. I've also customised some scroll down Tabs to input all her products. Thank you to SigMirror for saving my files to make the drop down Tabs work as crafted.

Amazingly while discussing with Rina on how to re-arrange her blog, I found out that this BlogShop business can be a real income if you really put yourself into it and pour your time. She does this part-time but I shockingly discovered BlogShop business she's currently running is paying her just about the same as her permenant job.

Well thats about it for today I guess, it's late, I gotta sleep to freshen up before I start a big web-site project tomorrow, meeting them for lunch and hope they'll just say yes to all my ideas, especially payment part haha. Chowww kitt *ermm haven't spoken to Alina this couple of days.